Learning to be still, pensive, and silent, in moments of reflection is a beautiful thing. Stepping back to realise that we are part of a bigger picture, a radical purpose....that we must die to self continously, so as to live fully in the freedom of a God, who holds everything together.

Well.........It turns out, I'm working as a checkout girl for the summer, whilst doing a annoying (only coz my time-management sucks) summer paper.

Things are trandsent in my life.....my faith, relationships, time, love.....everything it seems, is up "in the air". I don't know why. Trying to untangle and understand my faith.....it seems too complex...and i constantly feel like I'm letting down and neglecting God..........is that thinking even 'right', or is my theology screwed?

Questions are piling up, with it, a growing sense of unease about things in this crazy little world.

This is a blog entry...the most honest I've written yet...please respect it (to anyone who may find themselves reading it).

Ruthie xo

ode to singz (aka Singapore)

Looking back in Singz days, all the peeps I had so much fun with, everyone moves on and life goes so quicky a! Most of the peeps (that were in my cell group) and in America now...how long till I ever even see them again...cazyness!

It rained real hardcore yesterday...and I worked...go check-girls...haha! Nice and sunny today tho, wanna go for a swim at the beach but think the water is still freakkin cold!!!!

Brooke Fraser's new album is coming out on Monday...yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (www.brookefraser.com). Love her soul and heart a...U2 was so wicked, am still buzzing out from seeing them!!!!!!!!!!!!

Neways marmite.

Ruthie xo

today i thought....

Today it was really interesting. We had the guy from Tranzsend come speak at my home church. He was talking about a interview some pastor of a big church in the US had with Bono recently...after they interviewed him, they had no doubt that he's a follower of God....as they had doubted b4 interviewing him......"he may have issues with the church, but he's definatly a follower..." is what this guy remarked. It made me question, do people just assume that if someone has issues with the church, then they're not a stable christian or someting? Why do we equate the two with someone's fundamental faith. How does someone from the outside know what's going on in the inside....does going to church sum it all up? I struggle with that expectation people have. I mean, what if i stopped going to church....what would people think about my faith?

Interesting stuff. I never had any doubt that Bono was a follower of God...i mean just read some of the song's he's written.

Ruthie

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